Saturday, December 19, 2009

Inspiration, Encouragement and Accomplishment!

It's been a month since I felt I could take the time to post...My life has been filled with new adventures, new opportunities and new friends.. My decision to return to school has been a great blessing not only for me but my children as well. Many evenings and weekends where spent gathered around the kitchen table helping each other with homework, preparing for a test or just talking about the events of the day. As I look back..these are most precious moments. It was very intimidating at times as Griffin, Kylie and Ethan would sit down to explain the order of operations in solving a math problem. Cori was my satellite learning instructor, she is always encouraging me to stretch just a little bit further and try just a little bit harder... My best friend Laura even tutored me the night before my last Algebra test prior to my final. All of my cherished friends who applauded my return to school with words of encouragement, their support never ending. How blessed I am to live surrounded with children and friends who love, inspire and continue to cheer me on.

I have come to a profound realization in my life, it's not always your immediate family who have the desire or ability to be a support system. My greatest disappointments in life have come when I have depended on the false support of my parents and siblings. My greatest accomplishments in life have come when I have exercised belief in myself wrapped in the unconditional love of my children and beloved life long friends. My profound realization..... “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Christopher Robin to Pooh” ...

As I returned to school, I made the following commitment to myself. I would give my very best effort 100% of the time...every day.... I my goal was to finish the semester with a 4.0 GPA. As I pulled up my grades online....the tears came streaming down my face... just to the right of each one of my classes was an "A"..the tears represented many feelings, emotions and triumphs...especially knowing that what others think of me no longer matters. I am braver than I believed, stronger than I seemed and definitely smarter than I thought....How sad that instead of celebrating the greatest accomplishment's of those closest to us, so much of time has been spent trying to undermine and criticize.

I am free, it NEVER matters what others think...it only matters that we Believe in our own abilities and dreams... I profoundly understand the person and I am along with my potential.

I am so grateful for the experience of healing, opening my heart and mind to divine inspiration and understanding how love does conquer all..

As I spoke to each of my kids to share my good news, they each told me how very proud of me they were. They also told me, they know what I am capable of achieving in life..... Out of the mouth of my babes.... They always knew...they never doubted, never asked why... They always cheered me on.. Mom you can do this...Mom run after your dreams....How very accomplished I feel on many levels...As I am taking my victory lap...the feelings of hard work, giving my best and then some, never giving up and loving learning has been a great experience.... a tremendous accomplishment.

I hope my continued quest will include working hard to be a 4.0 student of life...working tirelessly on improving myself...loving without condition, giving without reason, being a great mom, better grandmother, great neighbor, great citizen...a women who desires to be the change she wishes to see in her world.

Carla